Well i haven't written in a while because of exams and then now i'm at home with only dial up. my family is watching Shrek 2 and because i'm talking to mike online i see it as the same as talking on the phone for a few hours. We have an answering machine at home anyways so someone will leave a message and if not it's not my fault.

my neice and nephew from manitoba are here so it's been nice to see them again. the boy is a hand ful at two but the girl is extremely cute. Truffles, i call her, because when she's dressed in pink she looks very much like the puppet from Mr. Dressup. you know, one of hte ones that was introduced after casey and finnigan left the show. She likes me a lot. always wanting to be with me. Sometimes she'll rest her head on my shoulder when i'm holding her. She doesn't cry a lot, but she's been whiney. i think they are both a bit sick. i've been blowing their noses for a while.
the cat doesn't seem to like htem. I brought the cat home for Christmas because it wouldn't be a good idea to leave her all alone for a week and a bit. No one seems to mind though. They all call her fat and get sidetracked on something else. She climbed up into the christmas tree the other day and caused a seen, but htat was when we didn't even have ordinatments on the tree.

well that's enough of one blog today. i haven't kept in touch so i have to slowly get back into writing them. I'll write again soon.

3 of 10... Congrads to Heather

Heather is a great friend of mine. We had some disagreements in high school, but that was just a phase. when university came along we started talking on msn more and more about life. I've given her advicce and in return she's given me advice. Well due to her Mel's msn name and then looking at hers i see that she is engaged. i can't wait to hear the whole story, but i'm not very surprised. We've been talking about it for awhile now, wondering if the big present he had for her that weekend was a ring or whatever. My biggest congrads goes out to you Heather and Ron.

3 of 10 is the title because Heather is the third of my highschool friends to be engaged. First was Kristy and then Maggie. Maggies wedding will be first and becasue i have not talked to Heather i dont know when her wedding will be. The word wedding is actually kinda scary, for me anyways... good thing for my two year rule.

well as i was reading my article for hydrology i was thinking about more things i could put in my blog and wasn't paying much attention to the article. But how interesting is the process of transporation and evaportation.. i can't be blamed for my ADD on the matter. and my friend just got engaged. Whooo hooo. more reasons to celebrate on saturday.

P.S. Mike for the record this should be stated. I don't think you wash dishes very well. But out of my laziness i'll still let you do mine. ;)

getting back together, trying to keep the bridges unburned

So after a night of much needed drinking i've got a bit of a hangover. i work at three so i don't have much time to recover nor study. i didnt end up studying yesterday after all. Oh well, eventually i'll feel the pressure and get down to it. Work last saturday was pretty slow so today shoudl be slow as well. For some reason people don't seem to be too excited about coffee in the winter. and then they bring back 'roll-up the rim' in february or march to get people coming back. i hate roll up the rim.

Would it be bad getting back with the boy? i'm wondering if things would change. i guess i need time to think and i guess i could try again but i need to figure things out, i need to learn how to be more open and let him know what's bothering me. if i truely didn't care about him then should it be this hard? i don't know how long i have to wait, but if i don't know if i can go until new years without him. i lived before without a bf. i should be able to do it again. i guess i'm just entering this posting to let him know how i'm feeling, it's really hard to actually say how i'm feeling. i'm not thinking straight now. exam time was a really bad time to break it off, christmas would have been worse.

there is no song i'm in the mood for.

I think my computer is running very slow today. it didn't seem to like it when i started the blog. So about the title. i have a few songs on my computer, but i've either listened to them too much or because they are too sappy. That's also why i have to stop listening to country. But i can't really think of a song that will hlep me feel better. Last night at work i heard King of Wishful thinking by Go west i think. it's on the pretty women soundtrack so every girl should have heard about it. I've used it before to get over crushes, but now it's too cliched. It's been used as a get over it song and there should be something else. that's what i dislike about music the most, people classify country as being too "hickish" and too "sappy" but its just that it's in a different way then the popular culture likes to address sap. There are many songs that have been sung by both a pop and a country artist and people still have the nerve to say that the pop one is better becasue it's not country. it's the same bloody song, don't go judging. Actually currently i have "so this is Christmas" playing by John Lennon. it's cool becasue it's not addressing love or heart ache. it's bringing me out of that world. i wish more music could do that and it seems like the music that isn't about heartaches or love is just not a desirable sound.

So i had lunch with my friend Soleil today. it was nice having a reason to leave the house. the walk of freshair is a lot better then sitting here, but i still dont feel like walking when i'm upset or annoyed at things. i've been really busy with school this semester and i haven't really had time for friends. i only have one exam this semester so i don't really need to study hard core yet. although i have scheduled at least 3 hours of studying to do today. maybe later. i can say that now cause it's only 2. at six if i'm still saying 'i'll do it later' it probably won't get done.

This is the song. no matter how cheesy 98 degrees are now the song "the hardest thing" relates to my love life more then anything. it tells my feelings pretty close to the actual feeling. Although it's just not a song that's going to make me feel better after a few days. i'm going to get sick of the before the lyrics actually help. it still makes me feel pretty bad how i had to do this to myself and mikey. Oh well, it does feel a lot better knowing that i am no longer holding that stress in.

Well i should sign off now. i should get some reading of my devotions done and maybe open my school books.

this is me and my kitten, Snoop. This picture was taken about a year ago. 

The day after

So this is my first blog, i'm a little excited. i've heard about blogs before but only by my sister who was curious of what one was, obviously i didn't know. but then the other day i was looking for research on my Geog 300 assignment and for some reason my friend Miranda's blog site came up on google so of course wanting to know why Miranda had a website i read on. i must admit i laughed pretty hard reading it.

So anyways a few days past and i kind of decided i wanted to create my own. i think it will be like my diary and i only have about 2 months worth of entries in it. But who knows, maybe this will be a hit.

it's about 1:20 am and i can't sleep. i worked till 11 and sometimes that causes some sleep loss, but i think tonight i'm too ... can't really think of a good word here... some that come to mind are: lonely, upset, heartbroken, okay only three. Does that give some hint though as to what i may be feeling. The thing is that i broke up with my boyfriend of three months yesterday and it kind of pains me to move on. Three months isn't really a long time, however, i suck at dealing pain. i would like to think that i should just be desensitised by now and not care. but nope, not me, i can't, i think i will be sensitive all my life.

Writing here is kind of hard. i'm not sure if need to explain my life story first or not. For starters, i'm 22 and finishing my last year at the University of Waterloo. my major is Geography and i'm attempting a minor in English. the question i hate most is what i plan on doing next year. forget next year i say, i don't even have plans for this weekend. I really don't know what the future holds and only time will time.